By Treva Susuras

Unfortunately, we all have a past. That past hold memories that can give us joy or give us the opposite. Hurt and pain are a part of life. We all struggle at some time or another, and believe it or not our past can direct our future. How we deal with things, how we deal with other people.

Most of us have been hurt so badly that the situation we were hurt in stays with us our whole lives. Like little videos that play over and over in our minds. Like when someone says something that reminds us of a way we felt in the past it will shoot those emotions right back at us. We may not remember the incident but we will remember the feeling. It might be failure, or rejection. The littlest thing can stay with us for the rest of our lives if we let it.

I remember at one point in my life when I was in 3rd grade (I think), I was very shy… believe it or not… and I had to do a book report. I was to stand before the class and I had to have drawn a picture of what ever the report was about and put it on the projector while I was giving the report. Now let me show you how the devil works, building up to this report, I had trouble at home, my dad was an alcoholic, my home life was unstable, we moved a lot so I was always the new kid, and I seldom had any friends at that age in my life. Satan knew my weaknesses, and planned to use them against me. Jeremiah 29:11 says that God has a plan for our lives, plans not to harm us, but to prosper us, to give us a hope and a future, right? For those of you that know me I am sure you find it hard to believe I was ever that shy but I was. Unbearable shy. We were poor so my cloths were either home made by my mom or from the thrift store. That in itself gives you anxiety as a child, always waiting for someone to say hey, that was my dress, my mom gave it to goodwill… what are you doing with it.

Sooo, back to the report. I stood as a 3rd grader, afraid of people, worried about my clothes, not a friendly face in the crowd, very insecure and unsure, but knowing I had to give the report walked up to the front of the class, turned on the projector, placed my picture on it and began telling my classmates about the book. The book I didn’t have time to read because there was so much going on at home… So, I really wasn’t even sure what it was all about but I remember I had drawn a horse and as I began to talk about the story, I touched the horse and the brown crayon came off on my finger and I jerked my finger back and said something like “yuck” or “ew” the whole class started laughing so hard and I was traumatized for life. From that day forward I did not do book reports, I acted like I didn’t care if I got in trouble, would not talk or answer the teacher when asked a question, even if I knew the answer…

I became rebellious, and stubborn. My whole life changed as I decided I would make others laugh at my disobedience. This led me down the road to nowhere, later, I eventually dropped out of school,,,bla,,,bla,,bla

Now the purpose of this story is not to tell my story for fun. I want to show you how the devil works. He already knew I was shy, and afraid, so he started there. He took something so simple and made it a big deal to me. That same story might not have affected you at all but for me it was a big deal. The word says God had a plan for my life, that plan as I have come to know it is talking to people. Ministering to people. Sometimes in a crowd. Up in front of people. On a stage sometimes. Now the devil took what he knew about me and tried to destroy my confidence. Now that I have overcome many things in my life, I know my confidence is in Christ, not in me. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. He tried with all his might to destroy me, but God had a plan and a purpose for my life.

What did the enemy try to do to you with the information he had about you in your youth? In your toddler years? Baby years even? What hurts have you buried in your past. One thing I have heard for so many is “my past is my past; I have overcome it leave it there”. But if you begin to talk about it to them, they will start to break down. Like a blister ​being popped.

Don’t get me wrong, I believe once we have overcome the past hurt there Is no reason to revisit it, but until we deal with it, the emotions that are connected to the trauma will continue to come back against us. We will find we have triggers. We might be having a great day and a stranger on the street walks up to us and says something or does something that triggers us and off we go, into our past emotion that was familiar to us. For instance, if you have felt rejected in your life and someone makes you feel unimportant, that rejection will come up and you might be either ready to fight, “no one will make me feel that way again” or you may agree with the rejection,” yep, that’s right , I’m not worth anything”

This can cause us to fall into so many strongholds, root of bitterness… and so much more.

I say all this to say, if you are struggling with life controlling issues, addiction, anger, perfection, fear, depression… and much more, please don’t stay stuck in this pattern. If you truly want to change and be set free, Jesus is the one to do it. Let’s find out what hurts are still in your past and over come them. We can do this, because all things are possible to those who believe. Please let us know if you need help in this area. Inner Healing is the answer to many questions. So, let’s get started!  Call  281-868-0537  and find out more about help with inner healing or Click on the contact button below and someone will get back to you right away. Thank you for reading and God bless!